2011

Assalamualaikum.

As I was cleaning up my cupboard containing all of my school books, used papers  etc. I needed it empty so that I could put in my new & heavier Form 4 books. Lol. I soon discovered that I still have my examination papers. Yknow, from Ujian Intervensi to Mid-Year exam to whatever tests I took last year. Things got a little emotional just because it was hard for me to throw em' away. I guess it's because it was such a huge part of my PMR journey. And of course it wasn't just an ordinary ride.

It's like, those papers have brought me to where I am right now. And what was most emotional was the grades on the papers, hahaha. I still remembered holding my Sejarah paper that I nearly failed. I was never a brilliant student. I'd consider myself a very average student academic wise. So that explains the results, lol.

I'm a very sentimental person you see. If you were close to me, you'd know that I'm the kind of person who keeps stuff just because I feel attached to it. Like if you were extra nice in your text message, I'd definitely keep it. Seriously.

Same goes to my 2011 memories. Oh dear, I'd say 2011 was my year. It was one splendid year. You know, from being playful & ignorant to PMR, I transformed myself into a study freak. I made a lot of personal changes to myself, like wearing the tudung.  And many more. I've achieved in areas I thought I'd never stand a chance. I'm more to a sports person, so if I win something, it'd certainly be something sports-related. But by working extra hard & with a lot of people's support, I got to be Form 3's Miss Personality. I won't deny it, I'm kind of proud of myself. Because I'm never this you know, disciplined teen & anything similar to that. I'm always the fun & loud kid. I don't have to mention my primary school days oh my God. Hahha

Definitely it wasn't all ups for me, there would be a period of time where it would be just so tensed. And during those moments, I felt like giving up. These moments, these problems would still come & haunt me. But I sometimes just have to sulk it up. Life's never easy. But I got to say, God really helped me during my ordeals.

My 2011 experience was divided by my PMR exams. It's like a time divider. Life before PMR, things were very much different. It was crazy. Literally crazy. And what I mean by crazy is like rush rush on the go! Those kind of stuff, not crazy like having fun. xD It was all crazy studying. I attended tuition classes everyday. And it was crazy of Facebook too.Hahaha It was just crazy. And after PMR, things got crazy fun fun crazy.

Oh my, I had the most amaaaazing time after PMR. School helped a lot by organizing activities at school. Those absentees were at lost not only by not experiencing the fun. But also the chance to actually create a stronger bond between the classmates. Truth to be told, Form 3 helped me to be closer to my dear 3R. We were like a really amazing family. Like everyone accepted one another, there was a real connection between all 40 of us. I'll never forget them, seriously. I love 3R so much.

And the peak of 2011 was our PMR results. At least for me. It was and still is a living evidence of all of my hardwork. All of my teachers hardwork. And all of my mother's encouragement. It's the sweetest gift. My friends did well. Never thought I had such bright friends. xD Alhamdulillah.

You see, even though it was just a year time span, but I think I learned a lot, I gained a lot of experiences. I'd say I matured a whole lot. And I'm glad. I'm really really glad Allah has gifted a wonderful year to be with my family & friends. I went through different adventures, I felt different feelings, I saw different things. It was an amazing year for me. A word can't describe how at ease I am, writing this entry. I just want to share my happiness je.

Terima kasih Allah sebab mengurniakan satu tahun yg cukup berharga bagi diriku. I hope that 2012  will also be as blessed as 2011, dear God. Amin.

I know it's sort of late, but dear friends, have a great new year and may you all be blessed by His blessings. Insya Allah.

Till the next time,
Fir.

Indescribable

I'M BORED

HI HAHAHAHA I'M HAVING MY GARAGE SALE RIGHT NOW, LIKE LITERALLY! WAITING FOR PEOPLE TO COME LOL NEED TO PEE D;

Nightmare

Assalamualaikum!

Gila ni first time aku dapat nightmare yang scary gila. Like SERIOUZ SHIZZ YO!

I dreamed I got 7 As for PMR.....................................................................................................................

A DAMN B FROM BAHASA MELAYU?!?!!?!?!?!?!?


Omg it was the most terrible feeling ever. It felt so realistic. So clear. So damn real. In the dream, I received the slip and made a fake smile and giggled. But then I cried. I could feel and remember, I wanted to show people that I'm okay and fine but I couldn't fool anyone, couldn't fool myself. Like, that happened in the dream which shows what exactly I feel if I do get anything less than 8As.

And you know what's the most depressing part? I couldn't accept God's will. I couldn't accept the fact that I didn't meet my target and I couldn't accept the fact that I didn't get what I want. Seriously, it's the most horrible feeling you could ever get. How and when am I going to learn to redha. Seriously, the dream/nightmare was such a wake up call. It was a reminder. I should be more redha. Lol be more accepting towards situations. It was seriously an eye opener.

Like it has prepared me for the worst. I now know what to do if I don't actually get straight As. To tell you the truth, I actually dreamed about getting 8As hari tu, um last week kot. But it didn't affect me as much as this dream has. Lol obviously. Ya Allah aku harap aku dapat straight As and if I don't, help me to accept your faith.

Haihhhhh seram doh. So, rumours are saying it's going to come out on the 23rd (results). I'm not certain about that but I'm sure that the date's going to be out 2 weeks from now. Basically I'm guessing 23-25 maybe. Waallaualam. I really want it to come out as soon as possible so that I could end this torture. This suffer. xD Hahah it's really draining doh nak tunggu till the day comes. Ish.

Please pray the best for me eh korang?

Till next time,
Fir <3

Out in the Wild!

Assalamualaikum.

On the 18th of November, I was at Nur Lembah Pangsun for a recreational camp organized by our dear Ministry of Education :P

Lol, Teo & I were from St Mary's. plus 28 other students all around schools in the Sentul district. Okay skip the boring part. I'm going to like fast forward to the gempak part. K GEMPAK WHAT?!

                                                         Teo, Shang Min & Abe Jason <3

One of the activities that I enjoyed the most was the 'Treasure Hunt'. It was crazy. We had to create dance moves in a pool. We were forced to do extreme poses in a river. EXTREME KAH?! We had to crawl in mud like those PLKN people. Lol lumpur stinks like cow dunk. Serious shizz. My group won ;) Hebat doh sumpah.

Kak Divya, miss your late night stories.

Theeeeeen, came the moon. Lol dah malam. K. We had to do this 'Solo Drop' thingy. Each of us were left in random corners in the friggin thick dark jungle for like 40 minutes? Yah, as a pussy like I am, I was freaking out when the abang yang jaga2 tu pulled me into the woods. I had to sit in front of this pokok buluh. KENA JUGAK POKOK BULUH EN.

I was damn terrified. I didn't open my eyes and I was literally zikir-ing on LOUD SPEAKER MODE. And I'm not going to lie, it went on for the entire 40 minutes because I was just so damn petrified. I freaking went all Ustazah Pilihan k! I was imagining stuff. Fckd up stuff. I heard growls. It was ajcnafka I tell you.

Later, this abang pulled me & brought me to the others. KAU TAHU ERTI LEGA? Like satu beban yang gila monyet berat poof hilang! Sumpah aku lega gila doh. Kur kur, I then asked my friends, was it ok? Then they were like, "Lol takde papela, lagi-lagi aku dengar kau berzikir, aku pun rasa selamat."

T.T

Why is life so unfair? I was told that all of us were so damn closed to each other except me. I was like dropped right at the corner of the 'Solo Drop' perimeter. I was like kmk tol! 

Well, there's one thing I learned lah, assumptions aren't always right. I assumed that the facilitators would dress up as ghosts like how kem solat for my seniors in my school had to go through. My mind automatically  thought of that when I heard we were going in the jungle. So I missed 40 minutes of enjoying the dark night in the Hulu Langat jungle. When I did open my eyes, it was beautiful. Nothing scary. It was silent. 

Not saying berzikir was a waste but yah.

Lesson of the day, lol jangan pengecut sangat cam aku.

The End.

Fir.

                                      The Bunch

Where have I been?

Assalamualaikum and hi!

OMG HI EVERYONE! IT'S BEEN AWHILE GOODNESS. WHERE HAVE I BEEN?!
EVERYWHERE!

Okay I'm definitely going to share with you guys superb stuff I've been doing for these past few weeks. But for now, I'm going to share this.

I just want to share this to my fellow bloggers since I've shared to other humans.

And now, I'd like to say Syukur Alhamdulillah, I'm glad & grateful that I've made a few souls on Earth gelak by watching this. Me, Farah, Kong, Aisyah & Faii seriously didn't expect such respond from you guys! I've been uploading vids on my youtube channel but like yeah, it didn't catch many attention. But this one was like woah. Mainly, it's probably because the videos were all not general. Like the one I did for Kong, it couldn't relate much to random people. Ya.

So, I'm always wanting to make videos with my friends, especially during holidays. So I had these few over because I just thought it was time to update my channel. We wanted a video that could relate with people lah en. I mean those stuff in the video are literally how some teenagers are these days. KAN!? D:<

These 'teenagers' were our inspiration. So thank you korangs! Lols. Making of the video, Kong did all of the editing stuff. The others contributed amazing ideas & lol bakat lakonan mereka. 

So I guess we accomplished our main goal, to reach your hearts. K WHAT!? Lol, you know what I mean. I'm not used to doing this but thanks for clicking play & some of you, replay. xD 5 of us definitely appreciated it. Those yang share kat semua jenis networking website yang ada, thank you sangat.

Till the next time,
ItsFirFromKL