Nightmare

Assalamualaikum!

Gila ni first time aku dapat nightmare yang scary gila. Like SERIOUZ SHIZZ YO!

I dreamed I got 7 As for PMR.....................................................................................................................

A DAMN B FROM BAHASA MELAYU?!?!!?!?!?!?!?


Omg it was the most terrible feeling ever. It felt so realistic. So clear. So damn real. In the dream, I received the slip and made a fake smile and giggled. But then I cried. I could feel and remember, I wanted to show people that I'm okay and fine but I couldn't fool anyone, couldn't fool myself. Like, that happened in the dream which shows what exactly I feel if I do get anything less than 8As.

And you know what's the most depressing part? I couldn't accept God's will. I couldn't accept the fact that I didn't meet my target and I couldn't accept the fact that I didn't get what I want. Seriously, it's the most horrible feeling you could ever get. How and when am I going to learn to redha. Seriously, the dream/nightmare was such a wake up call. It was a reminder. I should be more redha. Lol be more accepting towards situations. It was seriously an eye opener.

Like it has prepared me for the worst. I now know what to do if I don't actually get straight As. To tell you the truth, I actually dreamed about getting 8As hari tu, um last week kot. But it didn't affect me as much as this dream has. Lol obviously. Ya Allah aku harap aku dapat straight As and if I don't, help me to accept your faith.

Haihhhhh seram doh. So, rumours are saying it's going to come out on the 23rd (results). I'm not certain about that but I'm sure that the date's going to be out 2 weeks from now. Basically I'm guessing 23-25 maybe. Waallaualam. I really want it to come out as soon as possible so that I could end this torture. This suffer. xD Hahah it's really draining doh nak tunggu till the day comes. Ish.

Please pray the best for me eh korang?

Till next time,
Fir <3